After a recent hiatus I have decided to start up a new blog where I can keep any of my followers and friends in touch with my news.
I split up with my Daddy and sister on Australia after almost 6 months of being a poly triad closed family. I loved them both and tried something new, but I’m not adult enough to handle it and had to leave. I am still heartbroken and sulked snd kept in what I should have talked through, but I felt they rejected me and I was always unequal in love. It may not have even been the poly experience but just them, but I will never know now.
For anybody who has not ‘met’ me before or heard of me I have uploaded a lot of pictures in my Gallery page, to represent my work in the scene from way back when I started in 2006, right up until today. I’m amazed I’m still doing this but thanks to lots of rules and good sleep, fitness and diet I pretty much feel as lively as ever even though I don’t look the same, Father Time is a bitch!
If you have read my blogs before (and I have had four since my halcyon days) you will know I’ve always tried hard to tell it like it is and have a lot of fun with myself, but sometimes I have drifted into writing pages and pages of emotional deep stuff too. This time around I’m going to attempt to keep it snappier and get back to the fun girl I knew, before life got in the way these past couple of years. In any event I really don’t have the time anymore to think too much, so it will be regular doses of my thoughts and news as it occurs. As usual I will never speak out of school, break any discretion’s or confidentiality or post any pictures without due permissions, and I trust those who may meet or work with me or know me in a personal way will also do the same. It is an unwritten rule and I will always be ethical and professional and treat my friends and contacts with love and respect.
I have had a very busy two weeks, not only because I was very upset at our relationship ending but also with a lot of spanking activity that I needed to fulfil. The show must go on as they say, and it is, but I found myself even busier again than I expected, rather like when I started out in the scene. It was a timely distraction for me, but the only way I know how to react and deal with myself so that I can get my self confidence back again with people. It meant getting back out there enjoying what I know I can do and like to do (i.e being spanked), whilst trying to fit that in with my busy other life and semi careers. I am lucky to have good supportive friends in the scene and hope to work with some great photographers again, new and not so old 🙂 I did cry lots of extra tears though in pretty much every session, not for the usual reasons of being spanked when I misbehave, but with emotional upset and exhaustion. It has been a difficult time but I am OK today and getting better slowly by the day.
I did a session last night in which I (unusually) agreed to take some strokes of a rigid flogger on the fronts and inside of my thighs. This was a first for me and very what I call ‘BDSM’ and not usually my thing, but I braved it out and was pleased I survived even though I cried a lot of real tears at the time. I could easily have said no but it felt like a one off gauntlet kind of challenge and I had to close my eyes, which made it worse as I did not know when the strokes were coming until I felt a searing pain. I’m not sure how I feel about it, or ever doing it again, but I hope to have some more traditional ‘schoolroom’ pictures from the rest of the session sometime to write on the bits I’m used to. It was a school scene, with a huge difference :)!
However, today I’ve got bruises and marks and I have to go and see a physiotherapist tomorrow to see if I am fit again to get back in the gym after straining my back over stretching six weeks ago. It’s just a one off consultation for advice on a good new routine for me and I may join their gym too, but he asked me wear shorts! I think they will have to be cycling shorts, and I will just say a wardrobe fell on top of me! This was all way too grown up for me and messed with my head but I did it anyway so I have a smile about that today.
I will be going to the Strictly Spanking Party in Manhattan soon so will be there for the weekend of December 6-8. I hope to meet up with the friends and acquaintances I made at Boardwalk Badness in April and hopefully make new ones. I was in Melbourne, Australia last month for their spanking party and loved it so I hope to go back there again too. I guess that makes me an International Spanking Star now, seeing as I have worked in three continents so far!! I wonder if there are spanking parties in Asia, apart from those nasty teachers outside of there buying rattan canes from there? Africa? No idea if they have much spanking activity there either so I imagine I will just have to be content with wearing my South African school gymslip 🙂