So my profile has always been too long, and it was recommended to me to do some writings and link to them if anyone wants to know more about me.

Here goes….

  • I’m 5ft 7, size 12-14 (UK)/ 8-10 (US) and my BMI is normal in the average/middle of the range
  • I have 2 Professional business Diplomas
  • I have appeared as a spanking model for some well known websites and was called a celebrity many times, which made me smile. I’ve had long breaks but never officially retired so who knows!
  • I also have a Professional Diploma in Acting, and I also lived in Manhattan, New York for two months in 2011 as a student on an intensive ‘Acting for Film’ course. I cried for a whole week when I left New York, I felt like a local and was giving traffic directions to tourists by the time I left. I refused to reset my alarm clock and date to UK time zone
  • My taxi back to JFK for my flight back to the UK was late so my school hired me a Limo at 9PM. I had been sitting on the steps waiting for two hours and it was no fun having a warm limo all to myself and crying all the way home 😦
  • I studied Method Acting and Improvisation with some of the world’s leading teachers and have appeared on stage in Theatre and in some low budget films
  • I love Lisbon and have walked miles in the city and know my way around, and will go as often as I can
  • I am a Singer/Songwriter and play guitar and piano and have a desktop studio at home and I make and produce my own albums and videos. I have made four albums so far
  • I have been in bands before I was a solo singer and played lots of gigs
  • I love poster art and my newish apartment is full of recently bought carefully selected art that I relate to
  • I have had a Daddy in Australia once, and have had scene boyfriends who lived in France and Spain every other month, so I can never be accused of not making an effort to travel miles and live out of a suitcase
  • I’m a Taurean and very typical of my birth sign. Read up on Taurus Women if you want to already know me pretty well
  • I really do need 9 hours sleep to be at my best, strangely similar to a real age ‘Middle’ but procrastination gets in the way
  • I like lots of little things, my room is pink and full of stuffies, coloring books and toys and I hate it when big life gets in the way and I don’t have enough time to play
  • I am about one eighth Irish and one eighth Indian, but my ancestors on both sides of my parentage were from Ireland so that is at my core. I have to go to Ireland one day and see what we have in common
  • I am learning piano and taking my ABRSM grades and have a weekly lesson. I’m on Grade 2 right now and should practice a lot more than I do. I never liked Classical music much but I love it now through playing them on piano
  • I can speak basic French and am learning that again for when I next go, it is one of my tasks
  • I like French wine best (Chateauneuf du Pape reds, Chablis and Sancerre whites). I visited the Chateauneuf du Pape vineyards in Avignon and did the wine tasting. I love Avignon and the south of France. I don’t drink much alcohol at all, just a glass with a meal when I’m supervised as it goes to my head
  • I like Mexican, Italian, French, Chinese and British/American foods. Although I have some Indian blood I don’t like curry or any of the dishes. I have tried it twice and given it up as a bad thing, even after a mild chicken korma. I love all fruits and eat a banana and apple every day
  • I have been taking cod liver oil tablets since I was 16 and I think it helps my skin
  • I collect Starbucks Grande mugs from around the world when I travel or friends get me one. If anyone wants to get me one from their city i will start an Amazon wish list 🙂
  • I hate coleslaw, quiche, milk puddings (rice pudding, custard and semolina etc), couscous, celery, and mussels and whelks and haggis…plus more I can’t think of now
  • I like running, and my fastest mile in the last 5 years is 8:25 but I tend to run 5k (3.11 miles) in around 30 minutes.
  • I was diagnosed with GERD in 2016 so I had to give up caffeine, oranges and citrus fruits, dairy, spicy foods, fizzy drinks, and some others, as my throat and voice were affected for years before I was diagnosed. I am having hospital treatment now and it is much better and livable, but it is chronic and will not go completely without surgery.
  • I am straight so I’m naturally attracted to men, but I am very occasionally attracted to girls. I’m not brave enough to say or do anything first but I admit to wanting to snog one or two girls! I remember once saying to a friend that “I don’t fancy girls at all…just you”. There is something about her that I connect with, I think it was her confidence and letting her spank my bottom which was so hot (which is rare), but it happens now and then and it doesn’t mean I’m bisexual and I have no idea what to do about it anyway if I am bi-curious!

Anything else is none of your business at this stage, like anyone else 🙂

I’ve been asked recently what my needs are and I am pretty rubbish at saying. It’s easy to list the fetish ones, they are on my fetish list, but I was being pretty brave and silly and adventurous in there without risking too much!

I just saw these rather cool online tests in Fetlife and decided to do them to help me know myself better. I totally agree with the results and think they are telling me something about me in relationships (particularly with LDR’s I tried hard to make work), and maybe the types of people to run like crazy from in future! Now I know this I hope I can make better choices in future 🙂

  1. Discover your Love Language

[http://www.5lovelanguages.com/#discovery-whom]

My Scores: (all out of 12, is meant to show what i need from others)

10 Physical Touch
10 Quality Time
6 Words of Affirmation
2 Acts of Service
2 Receiving Gifts

Physical Touch – 10

A person whose primary language is Physical Touch is, not surprisingly, very touchy. Hugs, pats on the back, and thoughtful touches on the arm—they can all be ways to show excitement, concern, care, and love. Physical presence and accessibility are crucial, while neglect or abuse can be unforgivable and destructive. Appropriate and timely touches communicate warmth, safety, and love to you.

Quality Time – 10

In Quality Time, nothing says “I love you” like full, undivided attention. Being there for this type of person is critical, but really being there—with the TV off, fork and knife down, and all chores and tasks on standby—makes you feel truly special and loved. Distractions, postponed activities, or the failure to listen can be especially hurtful. Whether itʼs spending uninterrupted time talking with someone else or doing activities together, you deepen your connection with others through sharing time.

Words of Affirmation – 6

Actions don’t always speak louder than words. If this is your love language, unsolicited compliments mean the world to you. Hearing the words, “I love you,” are important— hearing the reasons behind that love sends your spirits skyward. Insults can leave you shattered and are not easily forgotten. You thrive on hearing kind and encouraging words that build you up.

Acts of Service – 2

Can helping with homework really be an expression of love? Absolutely! Anything you do to ease the burden of responsibilities weighing on an “Acts of Service” person will speak volumes. The words he or she most wants to hear: “Let me do that for you.” Laziness, broken commitments, and making more work for them tell speakers of this language their feelings don’t matter. When others serve you out of love (and not obligation), you feel truly valued and loved.

Receiving Gifts – 2

Don’t mistake this love language for materialism; the receiver of gifts thrives on the love, thoughtfulness, and effort behind the gift. If you speak this language, the perfect gift or gesture shows that you are known, you are cared for, and you are prized above whatever was sacrificed to bring the gift to you. A missed birthday or a hasty, thoughtless gift would be disastrous—so would the absence of everyday gestures. Gifts are heartfelt symbols to you of someone else’s love and affection for you.

  1. Personality Type (MBTI)

My Scores:

Personality type: “The Protagonist” (ENFJ-A)
Individual traits: Extraverted – 79%, Intuitive – 55%, Feeling – 75%, Judging – 71%, Assertive – 61%

Link to my Profile results: https://www.16personalities.com/profiles/ec66592a660e9

Oh and I’m a Taurus starsign too and without even doing a test I know that everything it says about Taurus girls is totally me!

This was fun!!!

== Results from bdsmtest.org ==

100% Brat
100% Boy/Girl
96% Slave
91% Submissive
58% Experimentalist
52% Masochist
47% Ageplayer
44% Pet
39% Rope bunny
33% Primal (Prey)
20% Non-monogamist
15% Degradee
7% Vanilla
1% Exhibitionist
1% Voyeur
0% Primal (Hunter)
0% Rigger
0% Daddy/Mommy
0% Dominant
0% Degrader
0% Owner
0% Master/Mistress
0% Sadist
0% Switch

See my results in detail: http://bdsmtest.org/r/6473944

I did something pretty huge for me this weekend. I wrote a long post in Fetlife asking for ideas from other people in the scene. Well..hmmm..it was actually an accident, but now i’m kinda glad it was!

https://fetlife.com/groups/600/group_posts/11529118

I started writing it as a post in my favourite group for Middles, but then I changed my mind and decided to make it one of my own writings for Friends Only. I thought people who know me would be the ones to ask seeing as they have seen my history and know how I am and how i behave and think. I was cutting and pasting and opening new windows on the screen, as well as reading Group Activity updates from other groups i’m in, but I thought I had copied it all over to my own writings page.

But, after i had done that the phone rang and I went away to take the call. When i came back it had a message on the screen saying I had already posted it online to this other Daddy-Girl group, and I had some warning message about not duplicating posts to other groups!!.

So…Omg so now i had my writing out to two groups but not as my own private writing eeeekk!! I had to dash out and leave it anyway so just swore a zillion times freaking freak fucky freeek…grrrrr!!..and stamped a lot and ran out the house!

Since then after feeling like an attention seeking ninny I have had some brilliant advice from people on both sides, and private messages that are helping me open up a lot more. I’ve also had a ton of the usual one liners from people who have not seen my eyes but are grading me on my bottom, but i smile to myself again. I feel happy that I have entertained them in some way, after once taking all of my pictures down and deactivating my profile.

Somehow, despite still having a dilemma to sort out about my existing situation, I’m ready to write about my needs now to anyone who asks me so i can get even more opinions.

I am very old fashioned. I’m the girl who never asks, who waits to be asked, who never competes, but walks away and says “find me”.

Now I feel BARE again with a super big blank sheet and an open mind. Talking to people does no harm and I’m feeling braver, even if i’m being naughty and procrastinating and wasting lots of time and not getting any sleep but hey ho it’s fun!!

Thanks everyone who contributed and wrote to me, i’m going to write a new song called ‘Bare’ too!

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