I posted a long rambling post in here a few days ago “Princess emma, finding my way back to me” and have since decided that it was wrong, self-indulgent and has little to do with my work as a spanking model, so I have shelved it and removed it. It is true I am (hopefully) a few weeks away from being available to play again, and I looked at my injury again this morning and just burst into tears that its still there and healing too slow. But that really is my own problem and you my lovely friends and readers I’m sure don’t need to know about that. I won’t apologise for my ups and downs, it’s how I am and part of being what I am as a submissive but my mood swings I have decided to bite my bottom lip on now and keep well away from my blog. I may have become ‘princess emma’ in my relationship which I announced on another website, but I am still Emma Bishop and am not going to change any of that until I have had time to think about what I want to do in the future. I wish I could be out there playing right now, I am so down over all this and have cancelled so many play dates the past five weeks that it is hurting me now and I feel that I need to try and take my mind off of spanking and find something else to do until I’m ready to be spanked again.
Here are some pictures below taken three months ago to cheer me (and you hopefully) up! I will be back, better and fitter as long as that takes and can’t image never being spanked again even though right now it feels like I won’t, but when I am ready my first time will be feel strange and unlike anything I’ve ever down before, because this time-out hurts the most and I will never again take it all for granted. Thank you for your patience, and putting up with my flakiness and tantrums. I will be back in school a soon as I can 😦